Happy.

I find myself happier than ever lately. So much more happier. Well, theres many reasons for my happiness. For one, college is going great. I feel like I’m actually learning something and understanding what I’m doing or gonna be doing. Second, I feel like I finally have a close girlfriend. Someone who I can actually talk to anything about & who understands me. Yay me! Honestly, its hard for me to bond with girls at a long term. I have close girlfriends, then after a while the relationship just fizzles out. I don’t know. I just cant handle the drama that girls bring. Maybe its just harder work with girls to maintain what we have. haha. Third and final, i’m starting a good romantic relationship!

Ok, so i’m mainly & mostly happy cause of the third part. But I’m a girl. We love falling in love.

He’s amazing in my eyes. In others, people just don’t see what I see. I know the saying goes, love is blind. But Im not blind, I see his flaws and I don’t mind them. So he does things, its not really a big deal. People do things! What matters is the way he treats me and the way we feel for one another. We both planned from the beginning of this relationship that we were gonna base it on trust, truth & communication. Three great things i think a relationship should have. And its going well. Like I’ve said, I’ve never been happier.

But I’m seeing happiness comes at a price. Some of my closes friends aren’t really excited for me. One is in it for my best interest. the other. I have no bloody idea why! She’s just being a total cibai bout it. For some apparent reason hates his guts! And is being a child about it. I mean, you already see us. Come and approach us to say hi. Your my friend, at least say hi to me and not him. It hurts. I mean if you have a problem with us, just say it. Cause if you don’t i will. And when i confront, I really confront.

The third is my bffe. Fitri c’mon. You haven’t even met him. I would honestly like it it you took the time to understand him & get to know him. Look, we already don’t have much time with each other due to different college schedules as it is. And i cant help that i see him mostly everyday cause we go to the same college. I mean, what can i do. That’s not my fault dear. I’m trying my hardest to have more time with you. And I know you very well. You just need time to adjust to this matter.

I honestly, do try my very best to make everyone happy. But during that process, I feel I hurt myself.

For once,

I wish you could just be happy that I’m happy.