Tuesdays With Morrie.

I don’t really understand what going on with me lately. Maybe just pre-pms going on, but lately i’ve just been feeling somewhat emotional. Well, what do you expect. When I finally feel good about myself, the whole world turns its back on me.

One emotion that been going through my head is I felt like I didn’t have a friend to fall back on. Felt like all my closest friends were either busy, didn’t really care, unhappy and or disappointed with me.

Do you know how that feels like to not have someone who you can talk things over with and make you feel better? Honestly, its a very shitty feeling. And the worst part is the person who should’ve been the person to talk to was the last person I wanted to talk to. Not because I didn’t wanna talk to him, its just he blames himself for what happened.

Yea, but that drama is somewhat over.

Next, I’ve been reading this book called Tuesdays With Morrie. Its about a lecturer & one of his old student that come back to see and listen to his lecturer about the greatest lesson. life. Actually, the book is mainly bout death. And this book has kinda got me thinking bout death.

Well actually, thinking bout my cousin. He passed away about 2years ago. I can still remember when my mum call me and my sister up to give us the news. It didn’t really strike me hard at that moment, but the school day after that. I wept for him for the whole world to see. Honestly, Im not a crying type of person. But this was a blow to the heart.

Vague memories are all i have to remember you bye. 
You are still missed & i pray for you.

Suhaimi 27.03.08